gosh, i hate it when i do this to myself.

anyway, moving along, i suppose that this time of year is when we’re supposed to reflect on the year that we’re leaving behind and resolve to correct all of the mistakes we made in it in the upcoming one. as much as i’d love to do that, i’m sure that the list of my mistakes for the past year is far too great to dive head first into and i’m sufficiently sure i won’t be making some of them again. but, in the spirit of the season, i’ll make some resolutions and see if i actually stick to them.

1. learn to be content with myself.
2. audition for more stuff.
3. figure out how to tell people “no”.
4. read a new book each month.
5. learn php.
6. stop using pirated software? (just kidding)

so some parts of that sounds a little more difficult than others. i do hope that i succeed. i’ve got to get off my ass this year. i need to own this year. i’ve enjoyed giving tours about other people for an entire year this semester, without breaking for summer. i want to be one of those people whose accomplishments get mentioned instead of one of those people who mentions the accomplishments of others.

i’d also like to start something this new year that i attempted to start two years ago and failed at miserably. the mother of a very good friend of mine always kept a diary, and at the end of each entry she would list five things she was thankful for that day. i’m going to try to end each entry here with a short list like that as opposed to a haiku (as i often used to do when i was still living over at frickawhat.net). it might take a while to get into the groove but i do hope to make it a permanent practice.

so i suppose this is a good place to end this entry, and i’ll begin with my first list, because i am thankful for:

1. having a car during this winter break.
2. this evening in providence with ed so i didn’t have to spend another night with my laptop and a cat that hates me.
3. “konstantine” by something corporate.
4. john oliveira.
5. being in a show.

and with that, it’s bedtime. goodnight, moon.